Since I took that nice long (well, long for my internet-addicted self) hiatus, I feel like I’m starting fresh. And as such, I want to try something a little different with Thankful Thursdays moving forward. Rather than an arbitrary list of ten things that make me happy, I want to pick one meaningful thing and write about it somewhat in-depth.
This week I’m thankful that I’m able to stay on such great terms with my ex. For the last year of our relationship, when I was having my doubts and questions, I really felt like we were more friends who occasionally had sex rather than two people in a romantic relationship. We mostly hung out, teased each other, sometimes cuddled, the way I used to with my friends in high school.
One of the reasons I waited as long as I did to talk to him about my issues was that I was worried I’d lose that friendship with him. Even if I’m not sure about spending the rest of my life in a monogamous romantic relationship with him, I do know that I will always want him in my life in some way.
He really is the most amazing person I’ve ever known, even if we have fundamentally different viewpoints on some things. I’ve never had someone who supported me and my goals so completely and unconditionally. He has a strict sense of right and wrong, and while we do disagree occasionally on what all those things entail, I know that he doesn’t like to see innocent people suffer, he’s a protector, and generous to the best of his ability.
I’m really grateful to have someone like that in my life. I’m grateful that he still values me enough as an individual to want to remain in my life, even if we don’t (for the time being) have the kind of relationship I know he would like us to have.
Okay, kids. Let me know how you feel about this new format; if you like it, if you prefer the old short list, or any other comments or suggestions.
I love you all.