Monday Musings: Panic Mode Initiated

So, last week I mentioned that something funny was going on with my unemployment compensation. And I figure out what it was: I don’t receive it anymore! I was under the misunderstanding that the state takes your maximum payout amount and divides it evenly over the course of a year. So, for the sake of easy math, if you were qualified to receive a total of $5,200 in benefits, you would receive $100 a week for 52 weeks.

That is not the case and I am out of money and still drowning in debt. Thankfully, like I also mentioned last week, I have a good, kind-hearted support network that won’t let me be homeless.

So. Yay?

In other news, I’m still trying to figure out how to make friends. Unfortunately, due to conflicts with my class schedule, participating in any clubs is out of the question this semester. Maybe next semester.

I’ve decided to give Meetup another chance. If you’re unfamiliar with Meetup, it’s a website where people organize events based on interests and hobbies and you can go and meet new people. Unfortunately, I’m still running into the same problem; I live in a rural area of East County San Diego and there are not a whole lot of people nearby who share my interests. There’s some stuff up in North County, but it takes me four and a half hours to get to North County.

I really should learn to drive.

In other other news, I’m still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I am looking at all the math classes I have to take for my new major and my stomach just sinks further and further with each one. The Cupcake Witch is not good at math, my loves. That’s why I’m not the Math Witch.

Why did I change my major from English, again? Oh, right. Because the jobs you can get with a M.F.A. in Creative Writing are novelist (if you’re one of the lucky 1/1,000,000) or Professor of Creative Writing. I remember, now.

One of these days, I’m going to make a list of every major I’ve had and the reasons why I woefully sabotaged myself decided to change it so you can all see my neurotic fear of success in actual, quantifiable words.

Is there other other other news? I don’t think so.

I love you all.

12 comments

  1. Shhhhhh I was planning on grabbing an MFA in creative writing after i get this MA in english… shhhhh don’t remind me that I’m never going to get a job shhhhhh…………….

    I’m so sorry that you’re going through all this crap right now – I know how hard money stuff can be, thankfully I also have support that won’t let me be homeless (I was venting to my boyfriend yesterday about this and he assured me I could live with him if i needed to, so there’s that)

    I also need to learn to drive. I have a post scheduled about driving – I really don’t want to learn, I’m so terrified.

    How do you feel about internet friendships? They can be pretty easy to maintain and in a lot of cases are just as fulfilling as irl friendships. One of my best friends I’ve ever had is an internet friend, and we’ve never even met! Not to say this can replace irl friends or fill the void completely, but it has helped me in the past to get through these tough spots.

    I hope things can get better for you! I am also terrible at math; I feel like we have a lot in common, haha.

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    • Ah, I’m sorry lol! I’m sure you’ll get a job, especially if you’re getting your MA in general English. There are actually a surprising number of jobs you can get with an English degree that I never would have thought would have anything to do with English. It’s that Creative Writing specific degree that had me shaking.

      My mother is going to help me with my credit card debt. Paying her back will be much easier and flexible than Visa. Also, she won’t charge me interest. But, yea, it still sucks.

      I have the worst anxiety around driving. You are sooooo not alone.

      And, I love internet friends. Most of my friends are from the internet. I have three that I’ve “known” for more than ten years and I’ve never met them! But, I would like some people to maybe go out to the movies with or to grab dinner with, sometime. That sort of thing.

      We do have a lot in common, it seems, lol! Math is the worst. It’s funny, because my mother is an accountant, so everyone assumes I should just know it. Like it’s genetic, or something.

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