I’m chalking the negative feelings I’m having towards some friends up to Mercury Retrograde and the fuckery it’s conducting with communication. I don’t usually “feel” Mercury Retrograde, because communication and decision making is always a nightmare for me (thanks, anxiety), but I’m feeling this one, I think. I’m just really sick of some of the … Continue reading Mercury Retrograde and Social Depression
On Wednesday, I went to a Galentine's party with a girl I met at church, Alex. I forced myself to go because I'm trying very hard to meet new people and step out of my comfort zone. It was definitely out of my comfort zone. That's not to say it wasn't fun, it just wasn't … Continue reading Overwhelmed
I'm really glad I started attending church. I've met so many nice people--everyone is always coming up and introducing themselves to me. I've even made a new friend! A lovely girl I'll be referring to as "Alex" on this blog (remember, I don't use people's real names). Alex invited me to a "Galentine's Day" party … Continue reading Making Friends (and other less exciting stuff)
Last week was pretty good to me, in terms of my depression and anxiety not being total a-holes. Part of that, I think, is that school has kept me busy. I haven't really had time to dwell on the negative stuff. So, that's good! Yay! Except for one notable exception on Friday and Saturday. My … Continue reading Short and Sweet Mental Health Update
Contrary to popular belief, I am trying very hard to be optimistic. In general, I've been doing okay. My sleep schedule is semi-on-track, which is good. I'm excited to start school next week (okay, "excited" is a strong word; I'm ready to start school next week and get one semester closer to a damn degree). … Continue reading Just stupid little depression things.
(Is that title too morbid? It's, like, one in the morning as I write this, and I don't always make the best decisions at one in the morning.) Here's the million dollar question: Is this my rational mind talking, or the depression and/or anxiety? I've been preoccupied with my future, lately (always). I've been thinking … Continue reading It’s like Russian Roulette, but without the sweet relief of death.
Excuse me for a moment while I rant. Whenever someone finds out I have depression, suddenly it's like they become a medical expert. "You should try meditation!" "You just need more sunshine!" "You'll feel better if you stop eating so much sugar!" And first of all, fuck you, I will not eat less sugar. Sugar … Continue reading Yes, I do yoga. No, it doesn’t particularly help.
Happy New Year! Again. It's the start of a new year, and it's Monday, and even though I have non-resolutions instead of resolutions, one of my overall goals is to update this blog on a more concise schedule. Something like Blog-tober, but not daily because I still need time to study and not panic about … Continue reading Mental Health Update
Sorry, witches. This one's kind of gloomy. Heed the content warning. Emotions behind the cut. I'm in such a scarybad place, right now. I don't know what's up with me, but I have zero motivation to do anything. Including bathe. I've been sleeping/napping a lot. I'm not really sure what I'm doing or where I'm going, … Continue reading Mental Health Update
Here's a quick little bit about living with anxiety and depression. It's semi-autobiographical, but definitely fiction. Title: On Alert Rating: G Genre: General Word Count: 314 It is seven a.m. and my alarm shocks me awake. I roll out of bed, put on my bra—damnable thing—and pad my way to the bathroom. Toilet, wash hands, … Continue reading Sunday Shorts: On Alert